I make music in the evenings to process my feelings. Recently, these words came out as I was recording: “This world feels like it’s falling apart sometimes.”
It stems from a general feeling I’ve felt for a few years now. On and off, not like I’m constantly feeling it. But it’ll just pop up every now and then. And I think it’s something a lot of people are feeling lately.
It’s a feeling of trying to do your seemingly pointless and insignificant daily tasks to get by, all while simultaneously reading about war, corruption, consumerism, inflation, people losing their jobs, their homes, their lives. Unnecessary competition for jobs. Environmental issues. The list goes on.
The world feels like it’s falling apart and what am I doing about it? What power do I have to change anything?
Thoughts, feelings, emotions. It’s all energy flowing through you. When you feel strong energy, how do you use it? What future am I investing my time, energy and money into?
You build your future by what you do in the present. Do you let anxiety take over and you freeze up? What future will that create? Do you spend your time doom scrolling through social media to escape from your feelings and avoid the job that you hate? What future will that create?
That was how I was spending my time. But I’m doing everything I can to change that. The following lyrics have been screaming at me recently:
If you know what life is worth. You would look for yours on earth. And now a you see the light. You stand up for your right
Get Up, Stand Up - Bob Marley
This time, I won't be complacent. The dreams I gave up and wasted. A new high. A new ride. And I'm on fire. My old shit ends here tonight…
Anthem, Part 3 - Blink-182
Being truly happy takes practice. Loving life takes practice. There will be days you can't find joy or love anywhere. But the more you practice, the more you will naturally find joy and love even when everything around you feels like it's falling apart. And the more love you feel, the more love you put out into the world. And the world desperately needs more love these days.
In July, I found out I would need to relocate my family to Seattle or voluntarily resign. I spent most of July and August stressed out. I felt angry. I felt overwhelmed. I felt a wide range of emotions. Those emotions poured out into my personal life. I applied and interviewed for a bunch of jobs. I negotiated the relocation mandate as best I could. But deep down something didn’t feel right. My heart wasn’t in any of it.
If you feel called to be doing something else, focus your attention on where you want to be and start taking small steps in that direction. You won't end up where you thought you would, but you will end up in a better place. Chase what makes you feel excited, energized, passionate and hopeful.
Ultimately, my goals are straightforward. I want to be financially free, not dependent on an employer for my survival. And I want to have a strong connection with my family.
There are two songs that have been speaking to me recently (screaming at me).
Sometimes you feel like everything is falling apart. You feel lost. You have no idea what the future will bring. That is a feeling I’ve been feeling a lot over the past 6-7 months.
I practice making music in the evenings to process my feelings. Recently, these words came out as I was recording:
“This world feels like it’s falling apart sometimes.”
It stems from a general feeling I’ve felt for a few years now. On and off, not like I’m constantly feeling it. But it’ll just pop up every now and then. And I think it’s something a lot of people are feeling lately.
It’s a feeling of trying to do your seemingly pointless and insignificant daily tasks to get by, all while simultaneously reading about war, corruption, consumerism, inflation, people losing their jobs, their homes, their lives. Unnecessary competition for jobs. Environmental issues. The list goes on.
The world feels like it’s falling apart and what am I doing about it? What power do I have to change anything?
Thoughts, feelings, emotions. It’s all energy flowing through you. When you feel strong energy, how do you use it? What future am I investing my time, energy and money into?
You build your future by what you do in the present. Do you let anxiety take over and you freeze up? What future will that create? Do you spend your time doom scrolling through social media to escape from your feelings and avoid the job that you hate? What future will that create?
That was how I was spending my time. But I’m doing everything I can to change that. The following lyrics have been screaming at me recently:
"If you know what life is worth. You would look for yours on earth. And now a you see the light. You stand up for your right" Get Up, Stand Up - Bob Marley and the Wailers
"This time, I won't be complacent. The dreams I gave up and wasted. A new high. A new ride. And I'm on fire. My old shit ends here tonight" Anthem, Part 3 - Blink-182
Being truly happy takes practice. Loving life takes practice. There will be days you can't find joy or love anywhere. But the more you practice, the more you will naturally find joy and love even when everything around you feels like it's falling apart. And the more love you feel, the more love you put out into the world. And the world desperately needs more love these days.